UnderNewManagement
I am a recently freed slave of sin with a very firm belief in Jesus Christ.Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Metamorphosis
I have not posted on my site for a while. Partly because I wasn’t getting feedback/comments, partly because I have been studying The Bible a lot lately. This is the first time I have brought it up here. I have been having some internal conflict with my life, things that I have been putting too much ‘interest’ into. Some of you might think this has to do with the recent passing of my grandfather but it has been brewing much longer than that. Still some may believe that my wife is pushing me into this and to that I say not so.
A long time ago I was ‘turned off’ by questionable actions taken by The Church. I saw The Church as an evasive business using its status to rake in profits at a tax-free status and billowing forth its narrow-minded views with an unquestionable authority. I felt that The Church was a hypocritical society pointing fingers at others with no investigation of their own actions. These are some hard feelings to get over. I never had any question to the existence of God or not but at how man was running the establishment of religion. As a result I pushed God and religion away and even flaunted the fact that I was going to hell. I know it sounds ridiculous but I did it. I also allowed much of my life to be consumed by pornography, where I felt I ‘needed’ to view it in one form or another on almost a daily basis. This is hard for me to admit, who wants to come out and say ‘hey, I’m an addict.’
I now have a different opinion of The Church. I have joined a church locally that treats me like a family member, happy to see me. They are not so quick to point fingers, there is a very minimal ‘fire and brimstone’ with a lot of emphasis on following the teachings of Jesus. Rejoice is not a strong enough word. My life is very different these days. I am learning to love my enemies and to control my temper. I am learning value of every life, which from a medical standpoint is very difficult. And I am enjoying life tremendously, I can only hope that each and everyone of you reading this can find this type of peace.
A long time ago I was ‘turned off’ by questionable actions taken by The Church. I saw The Church as an evasive business using its status to rake in profits at a tax-free status and billowing forth its narrow-minded views with an unquestionable authority. I felt that The Church was a hypocritical society pointing fingers at others with no investigation of their own actions. These are some hard feelings to get over. I never had any question to the existence of God or not but at how man was running the establishment of religion. As a result I pushed God and religion away and even flaunted the fact that I was going to hell. I know it sounds ridiculous but I did it. I also allowed much of my life to be consumed by pornography, where I felt I ‘needed’ to view it in one form or another on almost a daily basis. This is hard for me to admit, who wants to come out and say ‘hey, I’m an addict.’
I now have a different opinion of The Church. I have joined a church locally that treats me like a family member, happy to see me. They are not so quick to point fingers, there is a very minimal ‘fire and brimstone’ with a lot of emphasis on following the teachings of Jesus. Rejoice is not a strong enough word. My life is very different these days. I am learning to love my enemies and to control my temper. I am learning value of every life, which from a medical standpoint is very difficult. And I am enjoying life tremendously, I can only hope that each and everyone of you reading this can find this type of peace.
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